RIP Ong Teck Hee

Told myself not to believe what i heard.
Told myself that it was just a dream.
Told myself that i'll be having dinner, watching movies again with you.
Told myself that we'll have fun again during CNY.
etc etc.

I still cant convince myself that you're gone.
I still cant believe that it is a truth.
I still remember how much fun we had.
I still can remember your "f*cker".
I still can remember your laughter.

Until now, i still can remember your voice, as if you're still around.

I thought i had overcome it, and accepted it. So, i checked your facebook. Tears were rolling and dropped. So, the fact is that i haven't accept this. It must be a difficult task for me to believe i lost a friend of mine at the age of 20. But anyway, it's glad to know you.

I'll be praying for you and your family. And, i hope you are happier up there, and i don't think i can ever forget the day I lost a friend, for the first time in my life.

Teck Hee, rest in peace.

ps: there will be a memorial for Teck Hee on 26th May(Tuesday) 2pm at F3A08.

Broga Hill, Conquered! :)

4down!! 1more to go, finally!!!! I'll be back to total freedom on this coming Tues!!
Cant wait to finish them off.
And, i got so so so many things that i want to do!!
Cant wait for brunch with uncle Neth and my beloved Vian!!
Cant wait to go to A Famosa with Mulians..
Cant wait for our dinner!(u know who u are =p)
Cant wait to go for movies!
Cant wait for shopping spreee!!
Cant wait for therapyyy, spa again!!
Cant wait to hang out with Mulians again!
Cant wait until SM Ken, Rachel Nge, Alex Koh to come back!!
So so so so many thinggs more.....
Peoplee!! I'll be free from Tues onwards!! Bring me out, please? Haha! :D

22.05.2009
It was an awesome Friday!! Lovee ♥
The bad thing is, we have to get up really early!!
"Is it necessary?"
"This is a totally bad idea!"
HAHA!! But everything worth it i guess?

Alright, planned to hike at Broga Hill(fyi, it is situated in Negeri Sembilan, near Uni of Nottingham). So all of us got to get ourselves ready by 5am(supposingly). Imagine how early we have to get up, how hard it is, plus we swam the night before till 11pm =.=

Reached there by 545am. It was really dark! 6 people in total..

Reached the top at about 630am.

See.. The sky still lil dark when we're at the top.. Beautiful scenery!

Doreen and Seng, see, still dark.. Just reached the top, all resting :)

Isn't the sky is beautiful? Sun rising!!
Does it looks like some place in Malaysia? No right? But it is!! I likey the view:)

Inhaling fresh air :) It's me anyway :)

Me and Doreen
Preston and Lai Ge
Me, Doreen and Seng
Preston, Me, Doreen and Seng
Preston, Lai Ge, Seng, Me and Doreen
Does it looks like sunset? Haha, it's actually sun rise!
Lai Ge and me, while venting down hill in the middle of jungle
Sam yoga-ing LOL
Seng and Preston sniper-ing in the middle of jungle.
Happy hiking day.
6 of us in total.
From left, Me, Preston, Lai Ge, Doreen, Seng and Sam

Sun rising, before getting any sunnier, we ventured back down hill. What i'd say is, the hill is steep, its bit dangerous, its scary to look straight down from the top. But, still, everything worth! WOW!! I did it!! Thanks everyone ♥.. I was struggling and running out of breath half way into the climb, but they helped me throughout. I must work out more before going for another hill hiking.. I want again, can we?
Love u guys :)

BROGA HILL, CONQUERED!!!!!!

Credits to Sam TCM for all the pictures.
Credits to everyone who made it possible!

Visit my facebook for more pictures:)

Help me!! Someone help me please!!
Its 5am and i'm still blogging here.. WHY?! Its not that i dont wanna go to bed, but, i CANT sleep!!! Arghhhhh... Hate insomnia!!!! Someone give me sleeping pill please?!

Tell me what to do for now..
What can i do?!

I need rest for longer journey T.T

为了你，放弃了梦想，理想，等了已久的机会等等。。
值得吗？真的值得吗？
你认为呢？
真的这么难做决定吗？
只是简单的yes or no 都捉拿不定吗？
我怎么变得那么没主见？

放过我！

2down, 3more to go T.T

Happy mother's day =)
Its really really hard to get a good restaurant to dine in.. Spending 30min in car, searching for restaurant, seems like all are having wedding dinner. So... No choice, ended up at Daorae, a korean restaurant =)
Dad kept complaining about their service, but, public holiday ma, be patient darling =)
Luckily he didnt complaint about the food, but, i know they dont really like it..
Anyway pictures...

Mother's day is my bigg bigg day too=) Ok, rather called it as mother-to-be day? LOL..
Pampered myself with s-p-a spa~ Feeling so nice, so relax after that =)

BUT i'm not feeling so right now! I'm feeling so so so guilty T.T

我不是你想像中那么勇敢
每个人都有梦，而幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望，越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最后一站
我强问我自己，现在还没有个答案
但我很想知道，真得很想知。。

多想让你保护能流泪一场，至少我可能会好过点=）
我知道你听到的，我知道。。

Heading back to campus soon.. very soon T.T
All The Best peopleee!!!

mad

youwouldbettergetlost.youaresoungentleman.youaresodishonest.youaresoimmature.
you,getlost!thatsit!andstopfindingme,stopcaringme.idontneedit.
youdontdeserveit.youarenotevenqualified.
shameonyou?iwoulddefinitelysayyes!stayawayfromme!

Fire! fire!

My mood was extremely good till i saw the truth.
Yes, was extremely good..
Lai Ge, GG larrr.. Seems like wire connecting to wrong place. LOL!!
Nahh, this photo is to cure ur miss-ness towards me when i'm not there in Semenyih xP

1down, 4 to go!!!!! *arghhhhh~

Reporting myself @ Kepong :)

Random

Boringgg, I'm so boredd!! Yelling for freedom.. LOL.. Satu sedang tidur, dua sedang tidur.. Tiga must be swallowing maths now..

Suddenly so unmotivated to do anythin..
And..
Mind is so empty right now..
I should be studying Engineering Maths 2 now!!!
Mind is floating around..
I don't even know what's in my mind now..
Study!!
Stress!!
Yet, i'm still sitting here blogging =.=
Or... rather slacking now?
Until......? *grin*

MOVE!!! Shuxin move!!! Get your ass off from computerrr!! LOL
Okay i know it dont sounds right, just....tooooooo bored ma, what to do?
Simply type simply blah simply anything la =.=
lol

Anyway, all the best people!!
Counting down for Engineering Maths II paper~ =.=
okay, ignore me, get me to tanjung rambutan or even tanjung durian@@"

I knew who i am.
I knew what i am doing.
I knew where is my maximum achievement.
I knew what i want.
I knew who i need.
I knew what i can get, what i can't.
I see things clearer and clearer.

Just for now oh-so-important period, what i've to do is, focus on my final. After that, only think of other stuffs.
I'll just look through your pictures, your retarded actions when i'm down to cheer myself up, keep my tears away.
Nothing is going make me give up for now. Exam!!!! I challenge!

And another thing is, i must survive through this tough period.. Weak, really weak..