During my birthday in Apr, i got myself a pen which i've looked for for few years.
I owned the pen. I had a happy moment with the pen's accompanies. 4months later, somehow i've dropped it at somewhere. It dont belongs to me anymore. The pen found his way out to where he wants to go. I'll still continue finding where have i dropped the pen. Guess, i can't get it back anymore. The pen left me, leaving me all alone. Promises made between the pen and i will still remain there, never forget. I told myself: Shuxin, smile, the pen wouldnt happy if he knows you're like this now. So, i tried my best to smile, yet, failed. I'm sorry. This time, its time for me to learn. Learn to be tough, learn to smile on d worst time, learn to accept the fact and etc. I knew it is impossible for me to get the pen back since i dont know where i've dropped it. I'll be missing the pen, loving the pen as time goes by.
Dear pen, you'll get a better owner in the future.
Dear pen, i'm sorry for torturing you in this 4months time.
Dear pen, I am really thankful for what you hv done for me.
Dear pen, I bet you'll hv better time in the future.
Dear pen, God has a better plan for you, good luck.
Dear pen, I'll still be loving you, blessing you throughout the days.
Dear pen, take good care of yourself.
All the best, pen.


Anonymous: Thanks for your comments. Can i know who you are?

take care ppl.

smiled hard.

good nite!

iwillstillloveyoulikethepast.

I'm officially off from Syn. I miss everyone there. I miss the atmosphere over there.
Again, thanks for those who cared me, helped me throughout the process of learning. I learnt :)
I'm happy with what i had. I'm happy with the colleagues. They are nice, friendly, helpful etc. I'll remember you guys.

Here's the pressie i got from my supervisor(Lina) and Alice. I was surprised because i din tell them earlier that today will be my last day, yet, they manage to get something for me..
Those books, were from my field executive, Lina. The lollipop was from Alice. Thanks alot. I really love you guys. And, sorry for what i did wrongly in the past.
Had my last lunch with you. I hope you had a happy memories. I still remember what you told me previously. Surprise, jokes, smiles, winks, promises, i'll remember always:) Thanks alot! I hope you will pass your days in Syn happily. cheers :)
Had my second last lunch with you and you. Chit chatted. Although we dont really know each others, but, i'm really glad to know you. You guys are really nice. Thanks alot! Take care.
Went to play badminton after dinner. A lil bit of tired right now. Well, nothing much happened. Bed time :)
good night people!
ciaoz.

I must end 14Aug2008 with a happy post instead of an emo ones.
Now, i feel lots better.
You, called me. I thought you saw it and u called me to pujuk me. Who knows, u called to ask something else.
You, called me. At the so-called right timing. You laughed and i smiled. Thanks. I'm sorry that I can't recognise your voice through phone. I'm glad that you are okay right now. You claimed that you actually planned to give me a surprise by calling me at this time, and, it works:) I remember what I promised you just now and the other day. Thanks alot for protecting me, cheering me up, winking at me, take care of me throughout these days. I'll miss you dearly.
I'd like to thanks those who tried to cheer me up.
OHYA, Rach Nge, i miss your hug can i have another one?:s haha.
Alex Koh, i miss your craziness.
Guess tml will be my last day of working. then, MERDEKA!! It's time for me to rest, have lots of fun with my beloved frens before starting of uni life. LeeLing, thanks for the days you gave me in Syn. Lina, I'm sorry but I have to, thanks for guiding me throughout the days.
I've learnt alot of things in this short holiday.
Now, i'd like to spend my time with my frens and family. I love everyone of them.
Vivian Yap Hooi Pin, you'd better keep some time for me! I wanna meet you so desperately!
okay, bed time :)

cheers!
take care people

Sometimes, we just dont know why this happen, why that happen. I guess I'd tried my best, yet, you are blamming me. Why dont you try to think about others? Why must you give me so much pressure? I'd tried to be very strong. For those who know me, they should know how often, how easily my tears will be dropped. I did it. I controlled myself for not letting any tears drop again because of you. Again, again and again. I'm tired. Fed up. And finally, it drops. Why there are so much, so big difference between the past and the present? Everyday, no matter when i was in train, in work, in house, at restaurant etc, i saw something which i really jealous of. Why can't I have it? Is it as Benj. Cheong said "God has a plan for everyone"? And my path was the not-so-easy path? Nevermind, I can handle it.  Why are you hiding from me? Why cant you remain the same? Do you know its torturing? I lost contact with you because I don't trust you anymore. I hope you will let me know the truth as soon as possible. Heart tearing apart, I've never feel this hurt before. I hope you are okay right now. As i said, tomorrow will be a brand new day. Cheers! Thanks Rach Nge, I'll look at the bright side now, tomorrow and everyday. I miss you, you, you and you. When can i meet you guys? Isabelle, I remembered what I told you, I've never forget about it. But I don't think you remembered what you promised me. Again and again, I'm tired of keep on repeating. It was the 4th lonely birthday. I gave up in hinting. Now, i surrender. I need rest. Leave me alone. 

Ps: the "you" doesnt refer to one people, but few.

Human can never predict what will happen next.
Things happened randomly no matter we like it or we dont.
The past has become history.
We shall not try to change the history but the future.
Learnt to be tough by not letting any tears dropped easily.
Time has to go on and on.
Creating a colourful life is a must.
As time goes on, everyone should live happily.
So, i'll live happily no matter what happened in the past, what's going to happen now or future.
And of course, i remember:
"no sacrifice, no victory"

take care people
cheers! :)