Tuesday, March 31, 2009

It happens again.
Again and again and again.
So tired of it.
Or is it just i'm being over sensitive?
Whats the true answer?
What can i do?
ill.
To u if u happens to read this:
keep updating. Really love your writing.

Monday, March 30, 2009

2months

Its been 2months since it happened, yet, still the same.
Take care!

random.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Finally brother is back from Pahang, he looks very tired..
Awww :(
Yesterday was the "Earth Hour" day.
I wonder how many houses actually did this. Of course, my family did. Our neighbours did too :) I'm really proud of them who are actually show how sporty they are. Was actually hanging around at OneUtama during that one hour time. Saw few shops actually off most of their lights. Really shocked when i saw that. We shall gave them credit :) KLCC did participated in this event too. Check out this link here to see how KLCC looks like with their lights off. Amazing :D

Learnt a lesson: 拿得起,放得下

off to bed.
Going back to uni in few hours time.
I dreamt about u again since i last saw u. Take care, all the best!

Friday, March 27, 2009

lalala.. I'm still, tired but excited! WHY? coz i get to go home very very soon!!
mwahahahaha!!
and, i'm hungry again =p

be youself.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Again, at Tiscra after dinner.
I'm so deadly tired! Be calm, i'll explain to you why is it so.
Went for basketball and volleyball yesterday evening till 8pm. Then back to clean up myself. Followed by dinner. Rushed to Tesco's Kings to get a cake for Ashwin. It was kind of last minute plan. Then, went back to uni's fountain, to get prepared for the celebration. No pictures with me yet, so i'll skip this 1st. and the thing is.. ALL OF US WENT HOME AT 3AM!!! EARLY right?! And, i was suppose to have so called "Frisbee training" at 730am in the morning. wth! how am i suppose to get up? Yet, i woke up, but i didnt turn up mwahahah xP coz too lazy to get up lar..

Attended 2hours of lectures, lunch den off to BADMINTON session from 2 to 5pm. Followed by Frisbee till about 6pm. And then, basketball for about 5min, coz i really exhausted! Went home at 7pm then dinner and here i am at Tiscra NOW :)

I'd say that my mood is kinda off since last night. It's lik something is troubling me.
I dont understand. What is going on?! I dont get the true meaning of it. Or probably just purely because i'm tired?

But i'm so happy now. My brother at Pahang just video called me. I miss him so much! He looks very happy, thus making me feels happy too ;) Bro, i love you! Cant wait u to come back home again..

missing my bro badly ;(

and finally,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ASHWIN!!!!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Back @ UNMC

Now, i'm back @ Semenyih :)
Now, i just finished my 2hours of lectures and sitting in Tiscra, having a 3hours break.
I'm hungry now =.= (Jay i know what u gonna say)
I'm thinking the one who told me "the first one and the last one".
I'm missing my secondary friends.
I'm feeling lazy to move now.
I need a pause on all the complicated stuff now, yes, NOW
Finally, i'm missing my brother who is leaving to Pahang today for 2nd circuit, probably now he is on his way.
All the best bro! love you!

gtg~
off to kajang(i guess)
will update err...i try *winks*

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

After setting down, realised that life isn't as complicated as i thought.
When we were young, as lik early secondary school, majority think that only partnered will experience happiness. Yet, we're so so so wrong. After end of Jan, I realise the meaning of living of life. Happiness doesn't depends on other people, but on you yourself. When u choose to live happily, there you goes. After reading his blog, realise that living is simple. After chatting with Uncle Neth for ages(i can hardly remember when we knew each other), i realise that i'm still living in my very own world. Stepping out of the "circle" would make oneself clearer of what they want.

Things dont seems lik turning into what i want. Simple life is what i've been looking so far. Why am i always living in pressured lifestyle? Why am i always worried about other people's feeling and tortured myself? wth! Is this really what i want? It dont seems to be. The fact should be what i told Lih Chi, my mom previously. wth is happening? I cant follow the rhythm. Since when Msia became UK?! Since when i follow UK timing? Wake up please! Solver, solve my problems, please, and thanks! Binodal solubility curve, tells me where should i stand, I'd prefer to be in the region of immiscible liquids. Is nt tat i'm anti-social. Is not that i want to stand alone. But is the fact that, i'm not ready yet to counter everything.

Mr J: I'd say u're really really lucky. I'm so sorry for the misunderstanding between us.
Mr Clown: I'd say u're really really unlucky. Its going to be the torturous period with 22*3*3*

Please, tell me what can i do. Growing up is part of the processes that we will pass through. But, the ability of passing every problem is not determined by age. Trust, determination, confidence, understanding are the preliminaries. However, when the preliminaries do not achieved, how are we going to pass through the on coming difficulties? Give up or stays on? Yes, i'm easily beaten down, i admit.

I enjoy being single. I love the way i am, but not the way i was. I'm still improving. Thanks for the advises, encouragements that everyone gave. I enjoy being bullied(wth!). I enjoy being myself.

I'm here to announce: I'm attached forever-ly to VIVIAN YAP HOOI PIN!!!
(how dare u say we are not? LOL)
Nobody is going to get me from her! Though i know she got her another half, but, who cares? I still love her to bits!

I'm lesbian? If you think so, then i am; if you query, then i am not ;) Well, whatever you say.

You might wonder what the heck i was bullshitting. Well, just ignore this post if you cant get what i mean ;) I'm just purely expressing my feeling, my thinking and blah-ing my childishness =.= wth! lol

Mr Clown: Please understand this post. But dont ask me anythin about this post.

Taggies

I know i have been tagged by few frens of mine. Yet, i didnt complete their task, coz its super time consuming!!! Alright, so since i'm not in mood to study now, so i'll try to do all taggies.. Trust me, its going to take a really long time T.T

1st Tag by Leo Sue Wen
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you have to write a note with 20 random things, shortcomings, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 20 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you choose them.

1. I miss SM Ken, Alex Koh, Rachel Nge and Vivian Yap.
2. I am lazy.
3. I am at Kepong now though its Tues.
4. I love my brothers.
5. I miss playing Diabola.
6. I feel lik eating snacks, chocolates.
7. I miss "famous amos"(hidden meaning)
8. I miss SMKTE!! and of course frens over there.
9. I did my lab report until 2am last night.
10. I miss MCKL, slacking moments.
11. I am thinking of Mr. Clown (and suspecting too xP lalalala)
12. I want to diet!
13. I want to improve!
14. I hopes i get scholarships or things like that.
15. I want to play Frisbee and basketball with KarSheng, Bol, Don, ZhenYi, and Markus now:(
16. I cant wait to play badminton again.
17. I dont club!
18. I am in love with my Polo T.
19. I feel lik eating McD now
20. Now, I am going to list down the 20 people.
  • Mr Clown!! - to keep him update his blog
  • Zeng Chey - coz i never see him doing taggie
  • Khan Jack - for the same reason again
  • Gan - same reason also
  • Zheng Hao - coz he didnt update his blog for quite a long time
  • Keng Wei - dont always work, blogg!!
  • Priscillia - to keep her relaxed from her assignments
  • Vivian Yap Hooi Pin - coz i love her so much *mwahhhs*
  • anyone else who is reading lol
2nd Tag by Jackie
Rules: Write 100 truths and tag 10 ppl

100 thruths
001. Real Name: Shuxin
002. Nickname(s): Sushi, Kasut, Star etc
003. Age: 20 (not old okayy?!)
004. Horoscope: Pieces
005. Male or Female: female
006. Elementary: tadika errr forgot
007. Middle School: SJK(C) Selayang Baru
008. High School: SMK Taman Ehsan - i miss SMKTE badly
009. College School: Methodist College Kuala Lumpur - i miss MCKL slacking life too ;(
010. Hair colour: brownish?
011. Long or Short: long
012. Loud or Quiet: Can be very loud can be very quiet, depends ;)
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Camera
015. Health Freak: Yea gua?!
016. Drink or Smoke: Neither
017. Do you have a crush on someone: good question!!!
018. Eat or Drink: Both of course =.=
019. Piercings: Tak ada, sad :(
020. Tattoos: Had a fake one before, but not now
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social ba?!
022. Righty or lefty: Righty
023. First piercing: No piercing, come on!
024. First relationship: Haha! Game overed
025. First Best Friend: Err.. My laogong aka Vivian Yap Hooi Pin i suppose
026. First Award: Hmm.. Should be in Primary sch, but cant remember exactly
027. First Kiss: wth =.=
028. First Pet: No pet!! Hate pet =x
029. First Big Vacation: To Thai ba when i was 3 or 4 yrs old? Cant remember
030. First Love at first sight: No, but i do believe in this ;)
031. First Big Birthday: Had a big party when i was standard 3? 4?
032. First Surgery: When i was 2 3 yrs old? Awww!
033. First sport you joined: Badminton ba.. Followed dad for that
034. Orange or Apple juice: Apple
035. Rock or Rap: Soothing xP
036. Country or Screamo: Country
37. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Neither
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Neither
039. Night or Day: Night, more romantic ma
040. Sun or Moon: Moon
041. TV or Internet: Internet
042. Playstation or xbox: Playstation
043. Kiss or hug: Can i have both?
044. Iguana or turtle: Neither
045. Spider or bee: Neither
046. Fall or spring: Spring
047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball: Neither
049. Eating: YES!!! lol
050. Drinking: ya
051. Excitement level: cant be expressed =p
052. I’m about to: study?
053. Listening to: Jay Chow's song
054. Plan for today: Study SPF
055. Waiting for: Mr Clown to tell me "news"
056. Energy Level: Max only if after eating
057. Thinking of someone: Yupp
058. Want kids?: Want ba?!
059. Want to get married?: Of course! But not now
060. When?: Hmm 27-30? i dont know
061. How many kids do you want: 2? Dont know!
062. Any name on the mind: wth is tis =.= No of course
063. What did you want to be when you were little: Model? wth lol kidding
064. Careers in mind: I suppose? But not very sure yet ;)
065. Mellow future or wild: Mellow future ba
066. Something you would never try: Smoke or SiSha
067. When do you want to die: when its my time? wth =.=
068. Lips or Eyes: Lips
069. Romantic or Funny?: Romantic (*hints: Pieces are romantic =p)
070. Shorter or Taller?: Short but wants to be taller!!
071. Protective or Caring?: Caring ba
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: Romantic ba
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: Neither =.= what about nice ass?
074. Sensitive or Loud?: Sensitive
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: Hesitant
077. Muscular or normal: normal but CHUBBY!
078. Kissed a stranger: no of course
079. Broken a bone: nop
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Yes =.= contacts, when i rubbed too hard for once
081. Ran away from home: Never thought of that
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: Nop
083. Killed somebody: No of course!
084. Broken someone’s heart: Err i think so?
085. Had your heart broken: Yes
086. Been arrested: Nop
087. Cried when someone died: Yup
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Yea ;)
089. Do you believe in Yourself: Quite
090. Miracles: yes
091. Love at first sight: yes
092. Heaven:yes
093. Santa Claus: yes
094. Tooth Fairy: apa ini?
095. Kiss in the first date: wth =.= i dunno
096. Angels: dunno?
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: ya
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now?: ya.. must enjoy ma
099. Do you believe in God?: Free thinker ;)
100. Tag 10 people.
  • SueWen
  • B(15e)!
  • the same people as the 1st taggie?
3rd taggie by Vivian Yap Hooi Pin
wth! Chinese taggie =.= this is gonna take me even longer =.=
幸福點點名遊戲規則回答下列問題,並貼到自己的網誌or報台寫完後,自己多加一個問題然後傳給十個人,可以點被點過的人,被你點到的人你要去跟他說,我點到你了。寫完後去跟點到你的人說「我寫完了」不可以不寫喔,不然幸福就會跑掉喔

1.我的大名 : Shuxin
2.我的生日 : 03 月 13 日
3.誰傳給你的 : 老公慧萍
4.說出五個好朋友 : wth! More than 5 ba..
5.生日想要得到什麼禮物 : 生日都过了
6.近期開心的是 : "surprise party" gua
7.近期壓力大的是 : 学业吧
8.未來想做什麼啊 : 想做研究:)
9.有沒有喜歡的人 : 为什么酱八?每个都问同样的问题==”
10.同學會要回去找老師嗎 : 要
11.跟誰出去最幸福 : 家人
12.如果你的兩個好友吵架了 : wont get myself involved
13.跟情人出去最想去哪 : 最近没什么特别的地方想去
14.聖誕節要做啥 : 白色圣诞?雪人?
15.最想跟誰過聖誕節 : 朋友
16.有沒有起床气 : 什么来的 ? o.o
17.有幾個兄弟姐妹 : 两个弟弟
18.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的) : 目前是 梁静茹-情歌
19.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的) : 目前是 Daniel Powter - Best of Me
20.喜歡什麼顏色 : 蓝色
21.上廁所會不會先沖水 : 先冲水?用完后就当然会啦
22.愛不愛我 : 当然爱啊
23.喜歡男生還是女生 : 不同的喜欢吧
24.最想大聲說什麼 : 我很累
25.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所 : 怎么不敢呢?
26.上廁所會不會脫褲褲 : 好奇怪的问题==’ 当然会啊
27.誰很欠打 : 自己
28.現在很迷什麼 : Diabola, Frisbee
29.睡相很差 : 不会吧?
30.現在的時間 : 3.50pm
31.是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人 : Wont la.. I love her so much *mwahhs*
32.體重多少 :40-43kg gua
33.今天天氣 : until now still haven see sun.. Rainy day ;)
34.你懷孕了嗎 : wth! Of course no!
35.你若中樂透最想做什么 : Vocation ;)
36.大學生一定要玩的活動 : Is rushing reports, assignments consider as activity?

【點名人物】
1 Mr Clown
2 Jackie Wang
3 Sue Wen
4 Yee Ying
5 Khan Jack
6 Zeng Chey
7 Keng Wei
8 Zheng Hao
9 B(15e)!
10 SY Fang

01-【4號認識6號嗎】:不认识
02-【10號是男還是女】:Guy
03-【 8號的興趣是】:Talk ba? If not why he study mass comm, LOL
04-【1號有沒有兄弟姐妹】:Yup ;)
05-【7號姓氏】:LIM
06-【10號人緣好嗎】:I dunno wor..
07-【4號有人追嗎】: She so pretty, sure got ;)
08-【承上2號呢】:有吧 ?
09-【6號喜歡的顏色是】:Wa, i dunno wor.
10-【3號和10號是朋友嗎】:Nop, they dunno each other
11-【8號的生日是】:25 October ;)
12-【5號讀哪呢】:TARC
13-【你怎麼認識10號的】: Secondary, during Prefect session ba
14-【你跟1號的生日差幾個月】:4months
15-【你和9號有出去玩過嗎】:No, but accidentaly met before
16-【你喜歡和2號聊天嗎】:Okay la.. my cousin mar
17-【你喜歡和3號在一起嗎】:Sure, but she seems busy, same uni oso rarely see her!
18-【你覺得7號人怎樣】:I only can say, I miss him :)
19-【你覺得9號人怎麼樣】:Funny, good listener
20-【你愛5號嗎】:Of Course! Fren since Primary

1.是誰傳給你這份問卷的 : VIVIAN YAP HOOI PIN!
2.你們認識多久呢 : Form2 gua
3.你覺得他(她)對你來說很重要嗎 : Quite, but she damm busy lurrh=.=
4.你與他(她)的關係是 : Married!! Husband and wife ;)
5.請問他(她)的興趣是 : SLeep =p mwahaha!! Kidding la..
6.你覺得他(她)的個性如何 : Good :) Otherwise, how we become husband and wife? *hugs*
7.他(她)在你心目中是幾分 : Exceed full marks

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*睡覺前第一件事 : Wash hands and legs
*起床前第一件事 : Open eyes. Look for hp for time and msges and miss calls(if there is)
*你的偶像是 : NO wor..
*你喜歡的季節 : Winter
*你打工過嗎 : Yup
*打工次數 : Once
*你想去的國家 : Australia, Japan, UK
*你討厭什麼樣的個性 : Lazy
*你常哭嗎 : Yes, but now quite seldom d
*你常笑嗎 : Of course ;) but not when i'm emo
*去玩時喜歡一個人去嗎 : Can also if parents allow
*是假日時你都睡到幾點 : Not sure wor.. Depends wat time i sleep
*今天的天氣是(晴 雨 陰): 陰
*朋友和情人你會選擇 : Friend
*機會和命運你會選擇 : Chance
*你很自戀嗎 : Ya gua
*這問卷多不多 : DAMM ALOT wth =.=
*要怎樣才能讓自己過的好一點 : Cry out loud ;)
*喜欢吃什么 : Pasta gua
*喜歡吃冰嗎 : Not really
*現在幸福嗎 : Of course!
*最在乎哪幾個朋友 : Closer friends lor..
*房間裡最重要的東西是什麼 : BED! and pillow
*最常夢到什麼 : Scary stuff wth =.=
*男人精神出軌要不要原諒他 : Dunno? Never happened before
*你认为人生的意义是什么 : Simple yet contented life
*你知道吗?(看你们怎么回答!): Know what?
*什么时候最讨厌我 : When you broke promise ba
*向往出世抑或入世,向往道家抑或儒家? : Apa tu? my bc sucks
*你喜欢吃什么蛋糕? : Blueberry cake
*请问这个游戏可以停止了吗? : WTH! Must stop lo.. long enuf d
*喜欢沙丁鱼吗^^? : Still okay lar
*谁是你的知己? : Viv Yap Hooi Pin, Uncle Neth, Zheng Hao
*IQ/EQ哪一个比较高? : IQ ba.. coz i'm very emotional => low EQ
*電腦还是手機? : Handphone
*比较喜欢睡觉还是玩? : PLAY!!! coz i'm still young and energetic!
*Friendster 还是 Facebook ? : Facebook

FINALLY DONE!!!
and its time to study wth =.=
Blog later!!

And,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY
I love you daddy!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Sin Ying too ;)
Mwahhhhhs!
Miss u tonnes!

Sunday, March 22, 2009

wth wth wth!!!
super emo!

leave me alone.
back to lab report

not understanding = fail.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

game over

Stand in front of mirror, judge yourself before you start commenting on anybody.
No saddling point, no turning point, no stationary point, no point at all.
Just being too nice, too linear, too quadratic to you.
Binodal solubility curve keeps going up to the mixture point and will never hit the axises.

Suddenly remembered what dad told me:
"Dont give up when you lose, dont angry when you lose, stand up and think where is your weakness, and improve your weakness so that people have no chance to conquer your weakness. Dont easily play with your emotion. You have to control your mind, kept your mind clear, knowing how realistic the society is."

and also what mom told me:
"You can never expect how cruel how realistic the society is. Just keep your mind clear with what you are doing. Stop being so nice to everyone, you will never grown but kept bullied by people around you. And also, dont rely on others, do everything on your own."

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Grown. Realised. Understood.
Wondering how.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

When we grow elder, its no longer important.
Important things are getting lesser and lesser.
And there it goes, till the end of our life, it will decreased until zero importance.
Throw away disappointment, start thinking optimistically.
Matures will lead us through this process.
Why dont we choose to live happily every moment?
Why human being just like to torture themselves with unhappy on going stuffs?
Why human being like to pressure themselves with loads of work?
Think wise, do wise!
No matter how unimportant that is, there still will somebody who cares you. Your family, your friends, your classmates, your colleagues etc.
Stay happy, live happily, enjoy every single second of your life.
Throw away pessimistic thinking, throw away disappointments etc, and, starts to appreciate what you are having. Not everyone is having the "thing" we are having.
So, be glad to be who you are :D

Cheers!

need to go now.. kinda hungry now @@ woops!
Its 130pm :D
And i'm reporting myself at Tiscra(ie the computer lab) because now is break time!!
Kinda tired thou..
After doing atleast 4hours of sports yesterday, i feel so exhausted until now.. OMG T.T i need my energy back!! I need to be prepared for this Friday's test. Someone help me please ;(
Yesterday, was my 1st time of playing frisbee.. I'd say its a really nice sports, yet, is too tiring for me.
Nothing much to update for now.. time to class..
Will be blogging again very soon, i hope :D

Cheers!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Mr J & Mr Clown

As title above, this post is going to specially written for Mr J and Mr Clown.

Mr J:
I know you dont want to hear any apology(i guess). Everythin became dream n *pooof* it disappear. I know its going to be a tough days for you. You told me "Will stand up from where i fall", hence, i hope u can stand up soon. Recall back the past, its not longer than a month story. Thus, i believe you can do it. I wish i'll be seeing a happy, cheerful mr J soon. Bare in mind that friends around you will definitely be there for you, including me. Remember what i told you, i still will help you, listen to you provided if you want. Thou i cant help much but atleast i know you will feel better after talking to someone. Ups and downs. Repeating "Love is beautiful" and "老海龟". Just call me a b*tch if you want to. I know i'm not a good girl thou. and, that is not going to be the last video call we had. That is not the end of the world. That is not the end of your life. That is not the end of your challenges. That is not the end of our friendship. A new chapter has began :) smile. Be good to your wife. Your wife will brighten your life very soon. You need your wife. Finally, take good care of yourself. Drink more water as you are not feeling well. Hope to see you soon! Cheers :)

Mr Clown:
Bet you are *aza aza fighting* now. Good luck!
Thanks alot and thanks for being Mr Clown of mine. Thanks for calming me, cheering me up, helping me throughout emo-ness, difficulties. I knew i was offed yesterday. I hope i didnt scare you. I'm very sorry because i misunderstood you in the beginning. I'm sorry. Thanks for being my 24hours clown? perhaps? Haha..
See you~ take care!

Friday, March 6, 2009

Feeling that friends around me are leaving one by one.
Further and further apart.
Lesser and lesser friends.
Who want to leave me summore? *sigh*

emo.