Full Stop

Guess the title of this post is clear enough.
Things dont come as i wish.
Although its a short one, but i really happy, i'm really glad that you were beside me.
Thanks for everything you have done.
Thanks for all the memories.
Thanks for all the happiness, contentedness etc.
It'll be more than a thousand thanks i want to tell you.
I respected your decision thou i dont want to.
In these few months, we went to many places, shared a lot of stories.
In these few months, we never argue.
In these few months, you taught me a lot, pampered me a lot (guess most of them knew).
I'm sorry that i didnt fully trusted you. I didnt meant to do so.
I'm sorry that i burdened you for the past few months.
I'm sorry that i didint bring much surprise or presents to you.
Thanks for being so honest to me. I remembered when you started treating me so cold, i thought that you met Shuxin2. But you said no, you didnt. The reason is: you want to push yourself and focus on your sports and you feel bad for not having enough time to accompany me. This time, i decided to trust you. In the last phone call we had, you claimed that you actually still love me and we will get back together if nothing happened but still depends on fate. I cant comment anything about this.
So i'm here to announce: I'm single but not available.
He became part of my life since last October.
I havent seen him for 2weeks+.
I really miss him.
I dont know when i'll be able to see him again although he said that he'll find me again.
Friends around me know how deep the hole is. I'll try and i'm trying my very best.
This time, it's really hard to put down, seriously.
I dont know why this happened so suddenly.
You should know how much i support you.
Please take good care of yourself, please dont hurt yourself anymore.
I do hope what you told me all is truth.
Lastly, i love you!

i know you wont see this, but i hope somehow you will found it out.

Mommy: i know you're worrying about me. I'm so sorry. I will try my best:) Give me sometime, I'll be back to normal cheerful, naughty daughter-of-yours again.

tears are rolling, again. i am controlling hard to stop it from dropping.

To laogong of mine: Be tough! We'll pass through this "moment" together. I can do it, and of course you can:) Okays? I know its hard, but i'm trying my very best so you must too. I knew Uncle Neth will always support us one right? Happy Single Day :D remember to be tough! <3