Memories

*poooooff*

To be honest, I stone there for a minute when I was logging in. I nearly forgot what my password is. =.= In fact, I have not been writing for 3months. And now, finally I know the reason why I can't start writing after 5minutes. I've lost the inspiration of blogging. My bad, sorry.

Mind you, this is going to be a sad post. Leave as you wish as I don't want the sadness to spread as well. This post is just going to serve as a place for me to throw all my sadness in.

7 months ago...
We're one happy family. We talk, we smile, we laugh, we joke, we have fun together, we share our happiness, we share our stories and also we tear(one and only time, thats when I left UK =x).

1 month ago....
Combinations of my family and my family#2. Okay, you might be a little bit confused. What I meant was, my blood-bond family(my daddy, mommy, and brothers), and my foster family(ie, the family#2). Now you get me? So, we're one big family now :)

We were all having dinner together happily a month ago. And I received a mail few days ago. I can remember clearly, on Monday, I rushed back home after class, yeah, from Kepong to Semenyih to Kepong to see my foster mother. I saw a pale you lying on the bed. It was so heart breaking when you couldnt recognise me at the first place, yet, surprisingly you remembered me after you woke up :) Meantime, my foster father told me that you're looking better after the injection. What a relief!

Probably you've gave up, and suffered enough from pain. And, you decided to leave us. So, there you go on this sunny morning :(

R.I.P my dearest aunty a.k.a my foster mother

We'll always remember and love you! Enjoy up there, we miss you dearly.
Rest In Peace.

Please leave me alone, I need some time to get this emotion over. thank you.

Woman or women?

From my experience, it seems that women are more hot tempered than any man. WHY?
Why emotion always controlling them, but not the other way round?
Why cant they settle things in a better way?
Sometimes, it really ruin one's mood when things ended up that way.
Yes, I'm referring to myself. Why cant I start my holiday and proudly announce the end of my first sem with a smiley face?

So, again, please fucking figure out the problem before mad at others!

I'm really pissed off right now, dont ask me why, you know why!

And.....
Let's call it a semester after a long night of fighting with CEL Coursework and rushing to computer labs to get the damm report printed out and submit before the clock ticks to 4.30pm?

ok thats all. Write up again next time. bye. *emo*

Bf = ?

What comes into your mind when you see "bf"?

Best friend(s)?
Boy friend(s)?
Boyfriend(s) (errrrr....)?
Battle Field(LOL)? Or... something else?

Had a conversation with a friend last night and realises the truth let me down down down.

Boy friend will treat you like an angel, the best girl, the prettiest girl bla bla bla, if he has an intention or aim, I know you are smart enough to understand what I mean.

So, when their aim is achieved, they'll treat you like an angel-to-be. The treatment will be different as compared to when they haven't get what they are aiming. Why? I dont understand. Okay so there goes your lovey-dovey story.

"Romeo take me to somewhere we can be along ~"

HOWEVER, if they failed or you broke up. The story is completely different again. You both will most likely turn out to be strangers. WHAT?! Why on earth things must be ended up this way?! I really don't understand. *disappointed*

But, I'm always glad that Best friends will always treat you like an angel no matter what, be there with you whenever you need him/her.

Like Her...
We might not be able to hang out everyday, every week, but we never turn into strangers when we see each other ♥
The pic is edited by her, 200...9?

Like Him...
He will always be there for me :) ♥
Picture taken hmm....2009?

From the primary mates...(2009)

to the high school mates...(2009)

I dislike browsing through this album, teary eyes everytime, but this time, with a smiley face, because I ♥ the strong mulians-bond that we built =)

To the college mates whom I have not meet for longgggggg (2009)

And of course the girls love(2009)

Last but not least, the friendship, the love from UK (2010)
Mulians-overseas love :)

And this family#2 love..
I miss them dearly and they are coming back in January.. yayyy :D
Although we are not blood-bonded but we live and love each other as if we are :)

I cherish the one I care and those who cares about me :) Thank you bfs - best friends =)) ♥
So, please appreciate the best friend(s) around you =)

Anyway, 3 more courseworks to go and I'm then done with final year sem1 =D
Loneranger, fightooooo~!

I wish..

I know "I wish" works exactly like "If", that is, they won't come true..
But, atleast i might feel better after all these bombastic imaginary session..

Sometimes, I wish I'm not the ME right now.
Atleast, I don't have so many problems to face, to overcome, to hide, to pretend.
In fact, I'm still not as strong as what you guys thought.
I hide my fear, my tears, my stress. But, how many actually knows this?
What is shown doesnt implies how happy I am. And, doesnt shows the true how am I doing.

I believe the majority doesnt go thru what i've been thru. You couldn't imagine how tough it could be. I wish I can grow horizontal now(for the very first time), grow torns on my face, pandas, etc. Is either this, or, I wish I'm an angel now. Yes, you might thought I gone crazy, and you're right! I'm insane now!


Alright, my 10 minutes break is up. Time to get my ass back to my work.
3 more to go, yes, 3 more and I only have one week left for all these.

Good luck to all year3 Chem Eng who are still struggling hard now :)

Cheers and take care! ♥

For those who are in overseas, like Rachel Nge, Alex Koh, Benjamin Cheong, Graeme, Joey, Aunt Jac, Vincent, LiQing, B(15e)!, etc(sorry too many to list them all one by one), keep warm. Missing you guys out there. What about catching up after everything is done? :) ♥

LOST

时间过得太快了，渐渐地。。
我忘了怎样去珍惜你，
我不懂怎样欣赏你的好，
很不幸的，我看见的只是你的另一面。。
或许是我还没学会如何去珍惜一个根本不属于我的东西吧？
还是我太忙忽略了？
还是被难关卡住了？
到底最后会是怎样？是什么？我不晓得。。
会是歌词所讲的还是会雨过天晴呢？
难道要等到失去了才懂得珍惜吗？


Yes that's right, I'm so lost right now. I'm confused!
But, I'm pretty sure what I want when I started counting down on calender. =x
3weeks left. I've only got another 3 weeks to get my fyp, CEL and other courseworks done.
How wish I could have more than 24hours per day :( Yahhh I got bad time management, I know :(

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh T.T

Beee-zzziiiieee

I'm so sorry for not updating myself for some time.
Classes resumed as some of you know, or some may not?
I'm so flooded with work loads T.T
Fyp(Final Year Project), Lab and courseworks + little bit of revisions + catch up. So yea, imagine how busy my life can be T.T Yes, you didnt read wrongly neither do I typed wrongly. This is my final year of Uni life (or maybe not?). And, I want you guys to know that, FINAL YEAR IS NOT FUN AT ALL!!!!

Phewww so busy... Gimme some time to sort things out, and I'll share my stories with you people :)


My work gonna be piled up like THAT MUCH!!! LOL. Hahaha (: *fingers crossed*

Thats all for now I guess, I cant afford to lose so much of my time right now T.T I want more parteyyyyyyssss :(

Mulians, I might not be able to turn up in as much as yumcha session as before, but, i'll try? :)
Take care! And I love you all like I always do ♥

真的要那样吗？那不是我要的。。

我要的却得不到；我不要的就。。。逼我去接受？

真的太多太多不如预期的事发生。。

他，是我的。。算是猪朋狗友吧。但，不晓得什么事在少过一分钟的时间，把我们变成了陌生人。是有人在背后煽风点火吗？就算是，我相信这谜底有一天会解开。。要把我们的友谊毁掉？不是那么容易！

他，是我遇过脸皮最厚的人吧？没被理会最少三个月，但还是那么死缠烂打。。要说他很有恒心呢？还是不醒目？拜托你醒醒吧！你就快把我逼疯了！

他，是位身在很遥远很遥远地方的朋友。怪兽很喜欢他吧？所以她放了很大的希望。。我却不想让她梦想成真。。多希望没这一回事。。

他，是所谓的“pbf” 吧？但怪兽给了我一到很难很难的考题，很难过的关卡。能顺利过关吗？还是会被难关考到呢？

他们，是让我大学生活感觉最忙碌的一年吧？好多好多刊物等待我去读。。好累好累。希望你们不要这样来难为我吧，始终是一个马来西亚啊:)

他，是位让我觉得压力很大很大的教授。。拜托拜托，不要那样多我们，好吗？至少你得知道你在做什么。

她，是我的老友。她，每天都有着不同不同的难题在考我。。她，几乎要把我的念头给改掉了。。我看我就快要完成她多年的愿望了，但在这同时，她，又在“吹”我赶快踏入人生的另一个阶段。。好矛盾啊！！拜托你搞清楚，不要再难为我了。。

*以上的文章个代表着不同的人，不同的故事。如不懂，就请不要装很了解似的。

明天又要回去那“三卡拉”地方了。。回家的日子好像过得很快。怎么办？都怪我选择了那么远的学校。哈哈哈！明天是本校的10周年纪念日，就会去凑凑热闹咯。。忙碌的生活有快要开始了。。好累好累。。撑着啊！！还有几个月就结束了！就坚强点吧:)

朋友们，加油啊！冲啊！:)

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Semenyih

I'm back to the land of bored-ness? LOL. Class started yesterday, like FINALLY after a super long break. Got the super duper hyper packed timetable few days before the class started and it stressed me up =.= Probably this is my final student life or maybe not. Uncertainties again =x Haha!!

Anyway, love to be in Semenyih for few reasons:
1. Freeeeeeee sports facilities =p
2. More freedom? =x
3. Get to go giler giler with the giler giler ones? LOL
4. Errrrrrrrrrr.. Okie my bad =x

Dont want to be in Semenyih because:
1. Its BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! still BORING!!!!!!!!! T.T They dont have like BIG shopping mall :(
2. Its very very far from my home sweet home :(
3. Confirm spend more money here :(
4. ............ Okie I add when I can think of any =p

BUT, luckily I still can online here. Else, i'll be bored to death? =x And, luckily I'm going home every weekend? :) But, maybe not if I'm rushing my fyp :(

If you're free, please come over to SEMENYIH and bring me out!!!!!!! T.T LOL
Haha, nyway, just a quick post to.....kill my boredness? Hahahaha!!

Take care people :)

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1month home :)

The title says everything. Yahhhh I'm back home for exactly a month time:))

♥

好久没听到你的笑声、严肃的样子了，好不习惯。。你真的还好吗？不要什么都憋在心里好吗？告诉我们发生了什么事可以吗？拜托你好好照顾自己好吗？不要再让我们担心了好吗？我现在只有一个小小的要求，那就是想你赶快好起来，健健康康、开开心心地跟我们过接下来的日子，可以吗？就这么简单而已，做得到吗？能够让我提前许个愿望吗？它会实现吗?

奋斗的那颗心，你去了哪儿？
天下没有白吃的午餐，请你好好努力!

人类，是一个很奇怪的动物。。
人一天一天地长大，烦恼也跟个一天一天增加。。
为什么我们就不能开开心心地过每一天呢？
反正，开心是一天；不开心也是一天。。
我们不知道接下来的日子会有多长多久，为什么就不能珍惜当下呢？
珍惜眼前人！
要懂得惜福！

Just another quick shoutout:
Just one more paper, ONE MORE!!! and I'm D-O-N-E with my 2nd year :)) hoooorayyy!!!

累了。。真的累了。。
很想。。很想放手、放弃，可以吗？
离家八个月了，我想。。。

我想，是时候回家了，我想家了、想念爸妈的唠叨。
很变态吧？不，当你离家久了，你就会明白- 家，永远是最棒、最温暖的！
偶尔，一个短短的信息，已足以让我开心很久很久。。
病倒时，第一个想到的一定是家，永远都那么温暖的家、家人。。
考试时，第一个想到的也是家，那两个永远都会和我打打骂骂的弟弟，至少我不会那么寂寞。。

我想，真的该回了，我想念mulians，真的很怀念以往的时光，很想回到那个窝，mulians是我力量、开心的来源，我不属于这里。。我很怀念马六甲的欢乐时光，你们呢？我很想很想join你们的每一个outings...

我开始对这里厌倦了。。久了，麻木了，也不理了。。

不过，还好有一位随call随到的mulians成员陪我熬过每一个开心、不开心的时光。。谢谢你，palia。。他，每次都会关心我、安慰我、和我聊聊天到天亮。。原来我不孤独。。祝你面试成功！！没问题啦~ see you soon!!!

Still in the mist of exam.. 3down, 3more to go, then, i'm done with my 2nd year.. And, babehhh, i'm BACK!!!! :))

stay tuned!

Dear all,



I'm currently very busy for my final, which is in 6days time T.T
Will be back after exams!!!

Good luck to those who're having exams :))
Study hard, then, we'll play even harder!!!

Take care~

Happening

I'm super on weih!! Never thought this would ever happen..

Had a really really great time with the Solid Rock people..

Oh right, some of you might not know this.. I've been attending a Christian fellowship called "Solid Rock" every Friday evening since Feb. They are really nice, friendly, sporty, spontaneous people.. Big thanks to Ben! (:

I didnt manage to attend the retreat organised by Solid Rock, haihh!!! But still, they manage to organise more events after that..

Lets see...

Thurs - Frisbee in the evening

Fri - Chilling at the city, movie and game session which ended at 3am

Sat - Frisbee early in the morning and lunch

Sun - Super spontaneous BBQ partieeee and also game session

Nonstop man!!! I can't believe this!! But, i really enjoy to the max!! Thanks SR people!! (: I gonna miss you guys man :(
So now... ITS TIME TO CATCH UP WITH MY REVISION!!!!! No more spontaneous BBQ or steamboat till next week please, but i don't mind playing Frisbee (:

从前。。。

好久好久没更新了。。每次有东西写，但又不知怎么写成文章。。
过去的几个星期都很忙很忙。。Year 2 就快结束了。。
我啊。。来了英国都差不多有半年多了。。如果还不习惯就真的很差劲了。。
哈哈。。冬天结束了，春天到来了(: 但是，怎么没有春天的感觉呢？
好啦，在远方的你们都还好吗？

还记得以前，你教我怎样不要那么善良、怎样不要对每个人都那么好、怎样去对一个人残忍、忽略他们等等。。时间久了，我发现原来我真的做不到。。我不像你那么冷血。。他们也是人啊，他们也有感觉的啊。。为何不让他们开开心心地过每一天呢？我真的不明白你。。可能是本性吧。。你就做好你自己，不要再让他人失望了。。

还记得去年，你都会问我：“姐，你要吃吗？我帮你。。”；今年，你不在我身边，我就自己帮自己啦。。我好想念你，你过得好吗？练球会辛苦吗？无论如何，你一定要吃得饱，睡得好，一定一定要有足够的休息啦。。我很快就会回去了，到时候，我就会带你去吃sushi，龙的传人，看电影，好吗？加油！！加油，炜杰！！

以前的新年，一定会到处去拜年。。今年就。。。。特别点，在国外，但，我一点也不寂寞。。很意外的收到了一位学长的贺年卡。。谢谢你！！其实不只是这样，我有很多的新年饼吃，但，都很舍不得把它们吃完:( 爸妈，谢谢你们给我寄了肉干、我最爱的sushi roll，popiah roll 等等。。。所以啊，我怎么会寂寞呢？
ps, i'm alone, but i'm not lonely (:

其实啊，我现在没有缺什么。。我只是希望我的手能快点好起来。。但是，事情不是我想象中那么理想。。从去年十二月到现在。。。情况在恶化。。我不出声并不是我不在乎。。现在，不仅不能拿太重的东西，也不能在黑白键上自由、轻轻松松地跳舞，更不用说想打排球。。。简直是不可能！！真的要等到回家吗？我还可以做什么？？Nvm, I believe it will recover soon(:

I still have a lot stories to share, but, give me some time.. I'll try to put them in words (:

This is so crappy!!!!!!!

Since when a right decision can be made??!!!

(^%!@!#*@#()!^$*(!^#&*%@#&*#@!&(*

Chill, chill, you'll be fine. take a deep breathe~ Be calm..

有时候，

懂得太多未必是件好事。。

过分的关心不能改变什么。。

选择性的懂、偶尔的关心就足够了。。

分分钟，换来的却是反感。。

你要的未必是我要的，不要再自以为是。。

“放长线，钓大鱼”

人，总得学会如何控制，如何放手。。

以这样简单的道理，人，一定可以活得更开心~